I am angry. And I just need to vent the anger and get it out. I want to… I’ve run out of words. It’s just a long quiet silence inside of me, and I can’t release the pain. … Next morning. The pain has been the hardest part. It’s like this thing that sits inside […]
Joshua. Something has happened to me that I need to share with you. Today is my birthday. I am 43 years old. It is also Mother’s Day. And this Wednesday, on 10 May 2023, I was raped. Someone who I thought was a friend, invited me to a spa to celebrate my birthday. The evening […]
Present Day I am using my relationship as a test subject for my research, which is why I talk so much on it. I have been in chronic emotional pain since July 2021. Shortly after my partner told me he was afraid of his decline in intimacy with me, that planted a seed of fear […]
Present Day Anger just set in. I acknowledged, “Yes, Angel. You are PISSED that you were hurt. It’s okay now. You’re safe. You get pissed. Get angry. How dare they hurt you!” But do they hurt you? I think we are saying that wrong, Joshua. I think it is not that others hurt us. But […]
Present Day I had myself a good cry. I’m coming down and I now must explain. Every time my partner, Juan, left the house I would grow anxious. The anxiety was indescribable. Every day, for two years, if I did not know he was home, then I panicked. Tonight is the first night since August […]
“Hello, Angela.” I look and there across the familiar Irish table sat Imagination. Probably the only one accessible to me right now who can walk me through this. “Are you ready?” “I am.” “Who do you want to be right now? “I want to be a woman who is calm and relaxed, confident, and who […]
Present Day I have information. I’m beyond the Stages of Healing. Two months ago, I experienced the feeling of… I needed to know why. All of my Shadow Work, I dissected each and every event, big and small. I would compare recent events, past events, present, chain reactions, which way all the dominoes would fall […]
When someone says they just hurt inside, it is because they are out of Alignment with themselves. On this page, we’re going to walk you through what’s happening inside of you, why you hurt so much, and how to begin resolving it. Hurting inside is caused by the misalignment of your Cognitive Core located inside […]
Trauma Dumping. It is not something I condone. I believe focusing on negative and traumatic events, strongly changes the hormonal balance in the brain that enhances depression and, in people like me, trauma survivors who are hard wired to respond to trauma, trauma dumping leads to re-trauma. Therefore, I will be writing this next segment […]
I was diagnosed with Chronic Depression at age 16 (1996), and I was given Prozac by my doctor without any follow up. I refused to take the pills and instead started exercising and dancing to naturally put serotonin into my system. It worked. I also changed my thinking and implemented positive thinking, which also worked. […]
