“Maybe,” says Imagination… “Maybe, Anna. It’s time we take over.”
I felt the resistance today. I tried to go in a direction… It was supposed to be 8 weeks… I’m in week 5 and I am still on week 2. Today, I saw the resistance and realized immediately, “The universe is saying, “No. Anna. Wrong direction.”
If it’s easy, simple, and fast, then it’s right.
If it’s difficult and complicated, then it’s not for you.
Like getting, holding, keeping jobs… too many failures for me to count… Too many obstacles.
Learning has no obstacles.
Like your car accident.
The universe talks to me. Actually, she talks to all of us. I just learned how to listen. And I think… that is what I want to discuss here. That is what I want to talk about. I change. Fast. I change so fast that if you go 4 weeks without talking to me, I will be someone else.
This is intentional and on purpose. I live as fast as I think.
Today, I reached a new understanding and, due to my knowledge of the subconscious, I followed along with the steps in my head as the events were playing out… I was able to predict each stage of my emotional turmoil, see it coming, and “head it off at the pass” with the solution.
I realized I had wasted $5,000 on something that could have been free for me had I knowledge at the time. I felt this perception shift move into epiphany. I followed my own diagrams in my head.
I felt Angel, My Id, call out, “I want to pout! I want to feel sorry for myself!” And because I speak “Subconscious” fluently, I could translate.
“I need self-compassion. I need Self-Soothing. I need Self-Comfort.”
My mind cleared and I realized baking… The order and organization of baking… I pulled out the ingredients and set to work. And my Number #1 came over to me and hugged me.
I told him this. All of this. How my Perspective this morning was “A,” and it just shifted to “B,” and that changed my Conclusive Future from “L” to “M.” And made me realize I’m learning lessens too late in life due to how forced away I was from living and business. I’m often taken advantage of due to ignorance.
Education is always the answer to Freedom.
“Anna,” my Number #1 softly said. “Be easy on yourself.”
I laughed. Something I had told him so many times before. And I felt better. I knew what I had to do. I thought about the resistance to this program.
“Resistance means the Universe is saying, ‘No.'”
I saw it now. The fact that I was 3 weeks behind in THEIR time table. Rushing me. Urging me. My dicking me around. They wanted to me market The Healing Garden using dishonest tactics to boost profits.
I refused.
We severed ties.
So here I am. Sitting in Number #1’s kitchen, processing my new perspective, information, and options while I smell the brownies baking.
I have to make my own way. 100%. I cannot borrow from anyone else because where I’m going is unprecedented. While I can use founded techniques, I need to carve my own path.
If the road resists, the universe is saying, “That way is not the way for you.”
If I resist, the universe is giving me a direction that I am refusing to take.
I’ve been following this path for so long that I’m… I trust it completely to lead me straight. I trust it more than anything in my life.
And it’s still leading me.
I am Satan’s Wife.
… What were the words again?
Some women marry and settle down.
Others slut around.
But I am Satan’s Wife.
I am a Gypsy. A rover. A rogue.
I come from everywhere and nowhere.
I go where I’m wanted.
I do what I want.
When I want.
Where I want.
And I leave before I can be thrown away.
I am on a road.
I am alone. Always alone.
People come and people go.
Some walk alongside me for a ways.
I may stop on occasion
And lose myself in a torrent love affair.
But I am a storm. I am the sea.
And, in the end,
I take up my things and keep going.
I have to keep going.
Something calls me, and I must follow.
I can’t see where I’m going, only that I must.
Only where I’ve been.
Ahead is only the voice that calls me.
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2023… The Voice wasn’t out there at all. It was inside me, pushing me toward one place.
I came to that place and all at once, the Voice was silent as if to say, “This is where I knew you needed to be.” I set down my bags and I knew, with him, I was safe. I was accepted. I was loved. I was HOME.
I was there to pause and step away from the road long enough to heal.
I purged my pain. I found my Voice. I nurtured my Agency. I gave me Name.
And then, only then, was my mind clear enough to finally hear and know the wishes of my heart. I was able to accept my wants and desires WITHOUT SHAME.
I was ready to build my home.
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And again the Voice calls me to the road. Only this time, now, I know that it is the Universe calling me. My lover. She and I… We’ve known each other a long, long time. She pulls me to the road and I see it now. A home in Norway. A home in London. A home in New York. And I’m asking my Number #1, “where would you like to spend Christmas this year, my love?”
I can see that all now. I can see everything now.
It isn’t “Attachment” causes suffering. It’s “Resistance causes suffering.”
It isn’t “Letting Go.” It’s Accepting instead of Resisting.
It isn’t “Moving On.” It’s Accepting… so you can stop Resisting.
Imagine being blindfolded. And the Universe guides us, speaks to us, directs us. And if we trust the universe to direct us, she will need us.
The Universe is really DEEP Intuition. Something that exists BEYOND my Id. Deeper.
This… This is what I want to show you… This is what I want to show all of you.
I am a writer. I am a WRITER. AND I’m a PSYCHOLOGIST… And a Philosopher. I can use my blog to pull YOU into my subconscious mind and show you all the working parts. You can SEE what Multiple Personality Disorder looks like from the INSIDE.
This is my blog. It’s Demystifying the Subconscious.
And I’ll show you all of mine and explain it so that you can better understand yours. Did you know that 95% of our lives is controlled by our Subconscious? How well do you know yours?