“Fix my problems so I can be happy with little to no changes made. I want to feel better so I can continue the Toxic Behavior I have been doing all of my life without suffering any of the consequences.”

Narcissist #2, the Damsel In Distress.

I can’t help you unless and until you get Vulnerable with yourself and Honest. You cannot ever heal until and unless you get honest with yourself and that starts with Responsibility.