My sexuality has always been everyone else’s business. Growing up, it was always everyone’s business, but my own. My body was never mine. It was property. Never mine. The church talked to me about how God and the church owned my body. Then it was the property of a future husband and how I had to “save” my virginity for him. *ROLLS EYES*
When I took boyfriends and lovers, my body became theirs. Where I had sex and with whom was never my choice.
“I’ve memorized that p*ss*” my first Owner told his father in warning that he was not to touch my body. I was 15 at the time.
My sexual business was always everyone else’s.
Today, I live an Authentic Life. I follow my whim. If I want to go topless, I go topless. I talk openly and freely on sexuality. I attend play parties, Orgies, and Exhibitionist events. Most of my friends are all in the Lifestyle. I’m polyamorous.
And the last thing I care about is what non-rape victims or survivors *THINK* rape SHOULD look like in their ignorant Perspective.
When I came into my Free-Spirited community in 2021, I was true to myself. True to myself right up until May 2023 when a date rape that began with a tainted shot of whiskey ended in me locked in a basement vomiting from an overdose of Molly that he slipped me while the rapist did whatever he wanted to me.
The next morning, the woman I had trusted the night before accused me of being too “promiscuous” and throwing myself at people.
I closed my sexuality off immediately from everyone.
Today, I felt it opening back up again.
I have always made it clear to the men I engage with what I like, what I want, and what I expect. When I went on a date, I made it clear if I was confused or trying to push my boundaries. When I was uncomfortable, I made it clear that I was not in a good mental space.
I am allowed to change my mind. I am allowed to be indecisive. I am allowed to go on a date, uncertain about how I feel about it and then later, decide during the date that I am not ready after all. I am allowed to be human and real about my feelings.
Once I realized that I wasn’t ready to date again, I shut it down completely. I told everyone “no” while I figured my shit out.
Then I slowly dipped my toes back into the field.
Over the past two years, I received honorable admiration from people within my Free-Spirited community for my sexual awareness and my respect for others. They respected my bluntness and honesty and my ability to navigate my sexual boundaries and state of mind WHILE I was tackling some REALLY DEEP MENTAL SHIT, and always moving with a set defined boundary and respect to others.
When I recognized a man growing too hopeful, thinking my flirtatious and exhibitionist behavior was a signal, I promptly set him straight. “No. I’m a flirt. I love cuddling, petting, touching, breast play. I love kissing and hugs and nudity. I love being watched and watching… But PIV (P*n*s in V*g*n*)… No. That is my boundary until I communicate otherwise.”
Even the man who date raped me… a few months prior, I made it clear to him, “No. I am just not attracted to you.” And so… he staged a rape and took matters into his own hands. And that girl who did the staging in exchange for drugs? “You brought this on yourself,” is what she said to me.
The thing is, Over 200 people are in my community, and none of them raped me.
Brought it on myself?
As a rape survivor who advocates on the Front Lines for Authenticity and Non-Conformity, I am passionately aggressive about putting myself out there honestly and in the open. And that means no longer holding back my own Authentic Sexuality to appease one corruptive bitch who needed her drug fix at my expense.
I believe in Sex-Positivity. I believe Sexuality should never have been a taboo topic. I believe in the beauty and the celebration of Nudity and Sex. I believe in the celebration of group sex and the practice of safe, sexual adventures with Consent.
I believe that, *IF* you are going to mix sexual activity with alcohol and drugs that consent should be given and received BEFORE the intoxicants are involved and NOT DURING. I believe that flirting, nudity, and Lifestyles are NOT CONSENT for sexual activity.
NO ONE “asks” for Rape. I have 30 years experience in the Lifestyle as a BDSM Mistress and I am a rape survivor of trafficking and enslavement for 6 years of my life. NO ONE understands the laws of Consent MORE THAN I.
And I still rose above that abuse. I still practice safe, sane, consensual sex-positivity. And I actively teach it to others. So this is me, taking the front lines again. Owning it! Claiming it! LOVING IT! And embracing my Authentic SEXUAL Self!
I love Orgies! I love Exhibitionism. I love Nudity. I love and adore and practice polyamory and Group Sex. I love non-conformity and teaching others HEALTHY and OPEN Sexual Education and practices.
And I am going to Love Burn next year to celebrate Authentic Sexual Free Love in my BEAUTIFUL camp, SUNSHINE IMAGINATION ADVENTURES! Authentic Living includes Authentic Sexuality. And I live for Freedom. No one knows confined slavery more than I.
So this is me, shedding off the last of the Fear and cowering shame of a date rape from May 2023, and I’m taking the front lines again.
I Identify as Queer. I LOVE women’s bodies and am highly attracted to women. I am almost never attracted to men’s physical body’s. I am attracted to petite and “Nurturer” men only. I am attracted 100% to Energy. I prefer to be watched, and I prefer to watch. I love touching, cuddling, and kissing. I don’t like French-kissing unless I know you better. I don’t like anyone who moves fast or who is pushy. I don’t play with anyone who isn’t in my Circle of Trust.
I have a Life Partner. I don’t conform to “traditional” labels or terms used for Traditional relationships and that makes the craft of explaining my relationship or situation… VERY DIFFICULT. It’s best if you not ask about him. Ever. All you need to know is that the position has been filled and *if* I decide to play with you, *then* I will approach *you.*
I’m polyamorous, but I don’t engage with open-physical relationships at the moment. I am too whimsical to commit to anyone. I love to play and have fun, and I follow my Whim. I vocalize my boundaries. Always. I DO NOT EVER CONSENT TO SEX WHILE UNDER THE INFLUENCE OF DRUGS OR ALCOHOL. In fact, I invented something back in February of 2023 that helps with this (Patent Pending). This invention will be sold at The Healing Garden.
So yes, It is with GREAT PLEASURE that I’m finally open up and am announcing my Play Parties and Events! If you want to be included in the Invite, Submit your Application on Anna’s Elite (The link is on my LinkTree). And when an event comes up, you’ll get an email detailing the event!
If you want to join me for Camp Sunshine Imagination Adventures for Love Burn 2024, Sign up and Join me! We celebrate the Authentic Self! Sexual, Whimsical, and All in a safe, Consent-Celebrated space designed to bring out your Shadow Self and your True Authenticity!
IRL, I will be hosting adult themed Non-Conformist Lifestyle Events that provide a safe space for nude gatherings, game-nights, and dinner parties!
Welcome to the Free Side! I have cookies. 😈