Let’s talk about this!
We live in a society that encourages addiction. Rewards addiction. Seeks addiction. I am talking about work addiction. Workaholics. It is an unspoken Ugly about our society, and I’m talking about it.
Workaholic is an addiction. It is an avoidant one uses to short change and superficially “resolve” a problem… for a short time anyway. And Corporate America rewards this in us with more hours, more money, more PTO, more titles and responsibility.
The problem with being a Workaholic, and I know because I am one, is the GUILT.
*epiphany*
Guilt is the leading consequence to ALL addiction. Well, fuck.
I just realized I am caught in the cycle. There’s that lovely Perception Shift again.
The Addiction Cycle is Pressure, Avoidant, Solution, Guilt, Pressure, Avoidant, Solution, Guilt…
I just realized how much my Cycle is driven by guilt. Guilt to take pleasure for myself. Guilt to relax. Guilt doing anything that isn’t… well… work.
Where does it come from?
My belief, is that this is a sub-divisional symptom of, you guessed it, Narcissistic Abuse Syndrome where we were condition to work and serve, serve and work for “The Man.” Or, well… for the Narcissist anyway. So that any time not spent catering to the needs of the Narcissist, are riddled with shame.
“How dare you take a moment for yourself! Serve me!”
As a an adult, that need to serve goes on to drive and fuel our work ethic. Our work ethic? Or the conditioned response designed only to serve others?
Think about it.