This is Joanna.
There is also the Jerry. The Jerry is the Fear Police in our minds. I first heard the term “Fear Police” from Dr. Aziz Gazipura’s book “Not Nice.” READ IT.
That is your first homework assignment.
I had my own “Fear Police.” In a Multiple mind, I could speak to my “Fear Police.” Talk to him. argue. I call him Jerry. Everyone has a Jerry.
The Jerry is the idiot, the asshole, running around during a crisis screaming, “Ah! Oh no! We’re gonna die!” Learning to love the Jerry is hard. But, Jerry is part of us. In fact, Jerry runs the show. Jerry… embarrassingly enough… is in charge. Ugh. Or he was, until we all became aware of each other and started talking to each other.
You see, Stage #1 in life is learning how to stop fighting with others and learning how to work with others as a team. Many people do not know how to do this.
Stage #2 in life, is learning how to stop fighting with yourself and learning how to work with all the parts of yourself as a team.
And that’s what we’re doing here. We’re showing you all the parts. Our players. We have the personalities: Imagination, Joanna, Bergen, and Kallan. We have Angel the Voice and Emotions. Angel is our Dreams and nightmares. Angel does not know how to speak English. Or any language, actually. Angel only speaks in Emotions and in Dreams. Those are her native languages. When we learn how to speak Emotion, we can begin talking to our Id, in my case, Angel.
Jerry also speaks in Emotion. He only speaks in Fear. He is the one who uses Fear to Motivate us. Our Motivator Emotions come from the Jerry.
There is a third type of emotion, 3rd Party Emotions, we’ll talk about those next.
Erik… I have no idea who or what he is or was. I have been trying to figure him out the longest. Erik is silent. He never speaks. He has always been there since I was 12. I never “was” him. He is not an Alter. He was an imaginary friend, but I was 12 when I invented him. He was everything I ever needed or wanted from a friend and a lover.
He was gentle, quiet, loving, and kind.
He was a surrogate I could depend on for comfort and love. Aside from the cats. And Tribble.
Angela rarely comes out. She’s… She’s the one who stutters. She’s the Core. She’s the one who was first to suffer and was first to be imprisoned in the Mind Maze. She shakes and has the most to heal from we think.
So… There you have it. All the parts of the Anna System. 4 Alters, the Jerry and the Id. And the Core. Alcohol or cloves… bars usually brings Bergen out. Fear and business brings Kallan out. Weed and relaxation and safety brings Imagination out. Joanna as the Host, was always out prior to integration. Kind of like our default mode. We have four Domes. Broken takes place in the Irish Cottage.
“And in the bedroom,” Kallan said.
“Right,” said Joanna. “Actually, now knowing what to look for, Broken should look like familiar territory.”
“The Mind Maze,” said Imagination.
“The ForeMind where conversations occur,” said Kallan.
“We have to have a meeting every day,” said Bergen.
“And every time there is an unexpected event or trigger,” Imagination said.
“Constant Vigilance,” said Anna out loud.
“We have to be constantly On,” said Joanna.
“And we are so tired,” said Kallan.