I’m definitely Integrated this time. I’m all of us at once now. I’m Angela. The Core. I don’t need my Alters any more.
Almost nothing is known about Dissociative Identity Disorder. DID. Multiple Personality Disorder. No books I can pull from.
All I can do is tell you, show you, what happened to me these last few weeks.
April 2022 is when Kallan wrote a letter to my Number #1 telling him that we have Multiple Personalities and we didn’t know it.
The next morning, he showed me a letter I had no memory of writing.
There will be many who call me crazy. Mentally ill. Insane. Labels used by the close minded to try and make sense of their world.
I know that now. Don Quixote comes to mind.
I am hurt. Some days the Energy is too much for me and it’s all I feel. I’m coming to understand it. All of it. I can feel all the pain in all the world. I can feel it all much of the time. It’s my turn to be still, to sit, and to just let me beacon bring others to me.
May of last year during the Mercury Retrograde, one of my Alters finally broke free, Imagination. 16 May 2022. Immediately, I saw the war that is to come. I started seeing memories of her past. I saw everything all at the same time.
I started journalling as the Visions happened. I record most of them.
The Bible is a How To Survival Guide for the New Era that is coming.
The Awakening has already started. It started last year during the Retrograde. I’m getting ahead of myself.
Having Alters is like having, it is having, a separate Conscious mind for each. I have 5 working memories. 5 Consciousness.
This started when I was 8. When every man in my family verbally attacked me and a stranger (a man) waved a gun at me. I woke up the next day as someone else.
In this memory, where I am now, that was 34 years ago. After the incident in Manhattan, when my daughter and I walked into that bad part of town, Kallan switched in the middle of it and took over. she got us out.
That night, we remembered and Imagination and Kallan fought. They argued. Until I came out. I never come out. I realized in that moment that I don’t need my Alters anymore.
More importantly, I realized that each one of them had to heal in their own time.
And now, it’s my turn to heal.
Once they each healed enough, and once I realized I no longer needed them, I, The Core, returned. Now, it is my turn to heal. I’ve been calm since.
I feel all of us together. All the parts of me. At the same time.
Last time I was out it was 1988. I was looking for a phone cord on my cell phone the other day. I have to learn how to live out here. I haven’t been me in so long, I don’t know who this version of myself is.
So…
I love books and gardens and cats. I love family, but mine is small. I have seen so much pain and abuse and hate in this world and I’m here to cure it.
I want to talk to you all about The Energy Pool. This is my Philosophy. Do what you want with it.