I thought about going back on my blog and cleaning it up. But then, as it is, it shows me evolution. It shows the chaos I was submerged in until I came to be here. So I had decided to leave it.
I try to structure my thoughts and, it doesn’t work for me. The purpose of Exploratory Dialogues is my own personal journal. Nothing more. This is me opening my heart, my thoughts, and my mind to you so you can see and know and understand me.
Through Vulnerability, we connect with others.
This is my third day of Integration. It’s difficult starting over. Everything is uncertain. You feel lost. And it is a “problem” you can’t call up your friend and just ask about.
“Hey, when you Integrated, did you feel…?”
I feel this constant lump of pain in my chest. It’s there always. I know the source. And I keep digging into my Beliefs to locate it and correct it… It isn’t time.
The pain isn’t mine. It’s my Number #1.
I can release it. His pain isn’t mine to take. I am his support. Not his therapist.
I need to take care of me so I can do what I need to help others.
The Energy Pool…
I have a philosophy that guides me. It is something I have developed all my life. I call myself a Psychologist and people demand to see degrees. I call myself a Philosopher and they ask about my views on life and the world.
Isn’t it strange how people are? What they prioritize?
Everything we do exudes Energy. When we breathe, speak, act, move, decide… We give Energy. When we inhale, listen, observe, we take in Energy.
Everything around us is Energy. Like a vast pool, it surrounds us. We’re in it. We’re a part of it. Negativity, trauma dumping, harmful actions, swearing all contaminates the Energy Pool. If we are not mindful of what we put into the Energy Pool, then we could do much to contaminate the Pool itself. We share the Pool with all others.
What I put into the Pool ripples and spreads across the globe.
This is what Pay It Forward was all about.
Now, I can talk to you all day about Healing and your Subconscious, I can talk to you all day about what it is you want to change in your life and how to do it, but really… REALLY… what I See is how our negative thoughts, our swearing, our anger and rage, every day we all contaminate that pool just a little more.
You want a better life?
Stop contaminating the Energy Pool that you live in.
You want a Healthier outlook in life?
Stop contaminating the Energy Pool that you live in.
You want to live a fulfilled life abundant with love and acceptance?
Stop contaminating the Energy Pool that you live in.
Words DO hurt.
Emotions ARE logical.
Energy IS real.
Abandon these societal gaslights, and your Perspective WILL change.