This is an Excerpt from Episode #320 : The Fae Queen’s Tome : Chapter #15 (The Wishing Well Series Book #2), which you can read at “Lady Wisdom Presents “Something Different.” 

24 August 2025

This morning I woke refreshed, rested, and optimistic. I felt my Trust. I felt my Belief.

I had a dream that I was trying to conduct a Business Deal with my Agent, when Sol arrived. He offered me Bribes. I turned him away. He offered me money. I turned him away. He made empty promises.

Ahead, I could see the True Light and the True Goal. My Purpose. He was an obstacle forever between me and my Goal if I accepted his offers.

I finally dug my Will into the Ground and treated him like a Demon I had to Purge.

And he was gone. The path ahead was clear.

I didn’t know — but I did. I could Feel it and so I could Name it — what the Reward at the end was. What I wanted. That was my Reward. All that I wanted.

I was close. I had to stay on the Path and avoid all Distractions and Temptations.

A Temptation is only a temptation when it truly threatens you abandoning your Heading. This one I was currently in was a doozy.

I recalled last night.

Specifically the Lowering of my Standards for Humans. I could not hold Humans to God Standards. And the Hatred in me had completely abated.

I breathed deep enjoying my Freedom from Hatred, but then… It triggered a memory from my past.

Every time someone had told me that “their standards for me were too high,” I was filled with rage, and I adopted their Standards of me as my Own. I only did that a few four Dozen times.

By the time I was 18, My Standards were through the roof. I could always do better. I knew it. And every time I failed, I didn’t. I tried again.

I learned to “fail,” but to never fall short on Standards. Failing is great. You Learn. But NEVER LOWER THE STANDARD.

And I didn’t. And when the Standard got “easy,” I doubled the Standard on myself.

But this morning, I noticed a “side” topic or a “side effect” I hadn’t noticed before.

Beings run on Balance called “Center Point of Balance,” which we see in The Degrees of Freedom.

After we complete our Dialectical Compression Learning on a Single Ethic — Only AFTER — do we have the Discipline then to Hold ourselves at Center Point of Balance on 0°.

But External Forces — People — try to Manipulate and Micro-Manage your Center Point of Balance on 0° for you.

This is REALLY, REALLY a HUGE key factor in Psychology and Mental Illness. Pay attention.

When others Manipulate your Center Balance, The 3rd Law of Newton requires you to regain Balance and “go the extreme.”

My Skills are “X.” But Sol told me they were -20° “X,” so I had to recover the 20° he took from me and “Give Voice” to my Skills to restore me to 0°. Now I was Balanced, but then when he heard me “Give Voice” to my Skills, he got more upset with me because I had undone is -20° on “X.”

Now that he is no longer in my life, I felt the -20° lift from me, my Center Balance Naturally restored, and all my “Need” or “Urge” to “Give Voice” was gone. My Conversations everywhere else changed.

In my dream last night, I felt his words Manipulate my Skills again to make me smaller to fit his “small.”

That Introduces Center Balance Manipulation from External Sources.

Now, living a Slave, being exposed to Center Balance Manipulation from External Sources has its long term side effects, which requires Nourishment to recalibrate your Center Balance back to 0° so you can Honor your True Skill Size and Standard.

Standard Manipulation is part of this.

The Metric we use to Define Self and Growth is Vital to understanding how we Think, Grow, and Learn.

You have to be True to yourself and Authentic, AND you have to Honor the Self while being “Modest.” But Modesty is being Balanced. You cannot achieve Modesty — nor should you — while you are recovering from Standard Manipulation and/or Center Balance Manipulation.

You will either have “Forced” Modesty from Others, which is Standard Manipulation and/or Center Balance Manipulation or you have to Self-Regulate your own Modesty.

But you cannot Self-Regulate your own Modesty if others are Forcing Modesty on you with Standard Manipulation and/or Center Balance Manipulation.

You have to be allowed to find your own Center Balance. And holding that Balance is a Skill. The more Ethics you Master through Dialectical Compression Learning, the more you find that Balance.

My whole life, I had that one Voice —

“Thank you Dear,” I said to God The Husband.

“You’re welcome,” he said back.

— that kept saying to me, “Go Bigger.” “Go Bigger.”

It’s the Process of Expanding Perspective up and Out and Open. As far as it can and will go. For me, The Deeper you go in, the Bigger you get.

It’s Authentically “Big.” It’s Earned.

Fake “Big” is what Cheaters Steal.

And if you can’t see the difference between Ethical Authenticity in what is Earned and Inauthentic “Fake” that Cheaters Steal, then you are in for a rough ride.

The Fake “Big” that Cheaters Steal comes with their own Mindset, Vocabulary, Agendas, and Gods, even. Hermes, God of Lying, Cheating, and Stealing. Cheaters run this Society.

Ethical Authentic Grand that is Earned is what I and my Husband Manage and Operate. And we have our own Mindset, Vocabulary, Law, and Agenda.

Cheaters use Standard Manipulation and/or Center Balance Manipulation to control your Perspective and keep you in a Box.

I would be putting this under my Abuse Proof You Course.